Saturday, October 20, 2007

Older Man Mishap?

So the DJ I had talked about in the last blog entry had asked me to come out to see him DJ this past Thursday night...so I did of course. The week had gone by though where neither of us had each others phone number and he didn't even know my name.

I danced with many different men/women of all ages and races that night and I had a total blast but of course I couldn't stop checking out the DJ and smiling at him and really only wanting to be dancing with him that night. Although the DJ had asked me to come out that night...I couldn't help but feel that perhaps he wished I hadn't. Toward the end of night I waited for him as usual because I wanted to spend some time with him just as we did last week. He claimed he couldn't hangout that long because he had to DJ for a wedding the next day...same excuse as last week of course. So as we walked out the door he got stopped by some people outside to chat for a second but I just kept walking to my car because well...I was feeling a little pushed to the side.

By the time I had gotten inside my car who do I see running up to my car... the DJ. So I smile and let him in my car. He finally gets my phone number and asks me my name as well. So I figure he'll call or text me soon as he proclaimed to do. He kissed me goodnight and then walked over to his car.

So the next night I go out to the bar knowing that he has to DJ for a wedding and won't even be at the bar(assuming of course). Turns out...he came into the bar as a local and not as the DJ...but did he take the time to call me or ask me out to spend time with me...no, he didn't. Of course I was feeling hurt and I had left the bar early that night, but I didn't even know he was their when I left until a friend told me they had seen him their. He was on the opposite side of the bar and didn't bother asking anyone about me apparently.

I really wanted to spend some time with him but I think because of our age difference...he's blowing me off a little because he's perhaps uncertain. Sure I'm an attractive girl and had hot looking guys pulling me in close to dance but...I only wanted the DJ. I'm not sure what he's thinking...perhaps he doesn't really want me after all. I figure next week...I won't be so nice, especially if he doesn't call me before next Thursday arrives...or I just won't show up at all next week and see how he feels about that. Lets just say if I do go...I'm going to pretend to not notice him and dance and be with any guy I feel like instead of waiting for the DJ to make up his mind or tell me how he really feels.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Dating Older Men

I've stuck a fancy for a man twice my age for the past year now. Whom until recently we ended up making-out in his car and what not (Reminding you that he's older than my mother and he has a 21yr old daughter that has a child, making him one of the most adorably-cute Grandfather's ever). We had never even made a real pass at one another before and I had always thought he was attractive although unsure if he had felt the same for myself.

Until two weeks ago when he announced outside around my moms friends and my mother that he wanted to give me a huge hug goodbye and gave me a nice kiss on my cheek goodbye. Sure their was no perversion or anything of that nature, just a kind hearted kiss goodnight as my friends and mother walked out of a bar we frequent. My mother saying out loud "Ohhh, he likes younger women!" (ha-ha).

I was totally thinking about that kiss he had added into the hug he so badly wanted to give me that night. My mind began to wonder of the possibilities of being with him and if their was more meaning to that kiss than just a kiss goodnight...also thinking that since this man works at this bar as a DJ, he has seen me with several other men closer to my age and what could be going on in his mind about me...if anything at all.

My mom has yet to discover is age and she claims that lately he has been showing interest in me, although we both noticed before he can be a little flirt although neither one of us could confess to having ever saw him kiss another woman on the cheek at that bar.

So the next week I decided to head back out to the bar and do things solo to see if perhaps...their was more than meets the eye. It wasn't too crowded that night and as he was DJ-ing, I stood 10ft from him near the dance floor as he looked over and smiled at me and I gave a smile and friendly wave to him. He approached me and making small talk about asking who I came with or something of that nature and I told him that "I came to see you, you don't see me with anyone else now do you?", he smiled and laughed a little as if to believe I was joking but replied "really?? No you didn't...?". I confirmed that I did and he hugged me yet again although he was a bit bashful about it but he also seemed happy...perhaps that a much younger woman he had seen for a year now had made a pass at him. He then urged me to kiss him if I really meant to come out to see him and him-alone tonight...I was a bit shy about it because he was still working and all...so I giggled and didn't kiss him but I told him I would later on. He was just like "see, I knew you didn't just come here to see me" with a smile on his face as he walked back up to the DJ booth looking over at me with a bashful smile in slight disbelief of what I had told him.

Sure my mom will totally disapprove if she finds out his real age but....I'm really starting to like him and I know he must fancy me too. So on that note...

-Is age really just a number?

-Will our age difference cause too much conflict between the two of us and eventually end abruptly?

-Should I follow my heart or my Family?

These are questions and topics that arise for many other woman out their and the best advice I believe a person can say is....to follow your heart. If you believe your family is going to disapprove just keep the new relationship on the "down-low". It's better to discover your relationship/s out for yourself and learn from experience than having to break-off something that could be a beautiful one. If things positively progress in the relationship, than deal with it than instead of stressing a lot over it now.