tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7509369621678569382024-02-07T15:43:46.678-08:00Tales of a DaterFollow one womans quest to find her perfect soul mate.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-9435376398182707942008-09-13T05:54:00.000-07:002008-09-16T20:16:07.455-07:00It's OverI think it's over between my new boyfriend and me. Out of everything I've been through with men, I know my instincts have never steered me wrong. I thought I could trust this new guy of mine but after the lack of affection, planning and some other factors on his part, I feel it's over. <img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2007/02/tell-me-when-its-over.jpg" border="0" />It all began yesterday afternoon when what I thought was a nice gesture had suddenly turned into deceit. He called me from his work to tell me he had made hotel reservations for us, so that we could spend some quality time together because heaven-forbid he invites me to his place (25 minutes away).<br />He called me twice while I was getting ready so I called him as I was leaving, only to have him pick up the phone awaking from his nap. Turned out he never made any reservation at all as he had told me he had. He didn't even wear the proper attire to the club we usually go to where he said we would probably spend some time at if we wanted. Every time we plan to meet up he has always been late, I can understand there was an accident last night, but he has been late the other times we had planned to meet up. <img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2008/09/funny-pictures-your-hamster-mechanic-will-charge-a-pretty-penny.jpg" border="0" />So when we finally made it over to his hotel of choice it looked like some ghetto hotel/motel that was connected to a Waffle House (AKA Awful House). I felt I deserved better and acted a bit like a spoiled-brat and backed my car up and took off out of that roach hotel parking lot. Out of all the hotels there it seems as if he picked the cheapest one, which was so not cute/romantic or a place where I'd want to spend quality time with someone (it's actually the 4th cheapest hotel on hotels.com). My Father is president for a government business, I can't be up in a place like that, it's bad enough with him he never picks up my bar tab (with my 1 drink of $5 on the tab usually) and he never stops me from paying when we go to dinner (only $21.00 last night). <div><p></p><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2008/09/funny-pictures-cat-thinks-you-are-stupid.jpg" border="0" />Don't preach to me how you're some "<em>southern gentlemen</em>" when you're too slow to get the door for me so I'd rather do it myself just as my single-self has been doing (<em>like what do I need you for anyway?</em>). </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-52196174264544099642008-08-25T14:53:00.000-07:002008-09-16T20:18:47.727-07:00Is He "The One"I've seen this man around my frequent watering hole, he chats up a storm with everyone he meets, is friendly, fun and so adorable. At that rate I wasn't sure what his story was...if he was single, a player, married or looking for something serious. All I knew was that he talked to my friends and always went a little out of his way to give that extra "hello, how are you" my way.<br /><br />To make a long story short after about a month or so had passed of us doing the meet and greet at the watering hole and having those awkward moments of strangers that bump in the night and a full moon on the horizon...something had sparked. He asked me to dance...but this time was different from our brief 2 seconds of standing a mile apart on the dance floor before. We danced...and danced...and danced some more...we got closer and closer with our arms around one another. We felt the affection between each other that we had both been missing for years in our lives.<br /><br />Needless to say we've started a serious relationship together. Of course I'm skeptical and a bit scared, but he says he really likes me a lot and I really like him too. Hopefully my trust in him will grow and we may fall in love. As of now...I feel there are secrets between us, secrets that if not told could make or break a newly ignited relationship.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-6359959964424056422008-08-04T13:49:00.000-07:002008-08-04T13:53:43.727-07:0086edOkay so the last dude I blogged about I was hoping to "86" him...although I suppose the tables perhaps turned when he didn't appreciate me saying something about his financial situation. Needless to say he found a new job and a new place to live and basically bailed out on me. He promised he'd meet up with me though last week to return my shampoo and conditioner although...he of course stood me up. Never the less, I could care less about the shampoo and conditioner...maybe he can use it on his dog since he didn't have any hair himself, heh.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-64324331713914216272008-07-22T16:09:00.000-07:002008-07-22T16:57:53.674-07:00LOST TRACK RANTAt this point I have lost count of how many dates I've had this year and how many people I have met. I've been hit on by married men(<em>found out about that through MySpace</em>), I've been hit on by men that tell me "<em>age is just a number</em>" but then lie to me about how old they really are, also old flames trying to rekindle what once was which is totally annoying and the list goes on and on from there. Numerous times I have fallen victim to what a guy through the net preaches to tell me....how he would never cheat, he's a good guy, he'll like me no matter what, he'll be their for me and yadda-yadda(<em>B.S.!!).</em> Guys will tell you anything to get in your panties or have you give them something(<em>if you catch my drift</em>).<br /><br />I have recently been seeing a man almost as old as my own Mother. He is everything I'm not interested in...an x-marine, Caucasian, old, divorced, recently jobless(<em>and almost apartment-less</em>) and smokes indoors. Although he claims to go to the gym often and be a personal trainer...his body doesn't seem all that great(<em>not to hate because I am not perfect but if I was working out that much...I'd think I'd have a better bod</em>). The best thing about him would have to be his pet Dog that is such a loving and affectionate pooch. He constantly tells me about his x-wife and x-gf and every time I talk about myself the conversation turns into something directed about him. I don't even think he's over both of those relationships because he just lives in the past soo much. Its like...I'm trying to get to know him and I feel like I know more about his "<em>Martha Stewart</em>" x-wife and his physco x-gf than I do about him.<br /><br /><strong>Example #1:</strong><br /><em><strong>I say:</strong></em> "<em>I feel so tired</em>"<br /><strong><em>he says:</em></strong> "<em>I hear ya I am mentally tired from job hunting</em>"<br /><br />Common now! Tired from sitting your butt on the computer all day and job hunting and then telling me your going to the gym for two hours...that is not nearly tired at all. Tired is when you can barely drive yourself home and stay awake at work and concentrate.<br /><br /><strong>Example #2:</strong><br /><em><strong>He Says:</strong></em> "<em>I almost bought you that beer tonight</em>"<br /><strong><em>I Say to myself:</em></strong> "<em>Yea right, cheap bastard</em>"<br /><br /><strong>Example #3:</strong><br /><strong><em>He Says:</em></strong> "<em>I'm a Gentlemen, bet you don't know what that is</em>"<br /><strong><em>I Say:</em></strong> "<em>If you were such a Gentlemen you would've paid my tab</em>"<br /><strong><em>He Says:</em></strong> "<em>I only pay when it's an official date</em>"<br /><br />Every time I try to give me a compliment it always ends with him like "<em>Oh, that's nothing</em>". Its getting very annoying and I don't even want to bother complimenting him anymore since its like he's trying to make himself seem more impressive than he is(<em>which he really isn't</em>).<br /><br /><strong>Example #4</strong><br /><strong><em>I say:</em></strong> "<em>Wow, your bike is really dirty, you <strong>must</strong> <strong>be</strong> working hard!</em>"<br /><strong><em>He says:</em></strong> "<em>Oh that ain't nothin, its usually dirtier</em>"<br /><br />About the only nice things he has said to me is that I'm "classic", "wise "and that I'm the "sexiest/cutest/hottest/voluptuous/etc woman" he has ever met. Anyways...as soon as I get my shampoo and conditioner from his shower I think I'm going to "86" this guy.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-44454956998217626552008-05-09T00:44:00.000-07:002008-05-09T01:03:31.162-07:00Back to "Number 6"Guy "Number 6" has recently apologized...apparently we have made up although things are still "iffy".<br /><br />Being in my Mid 20's I find it hard living with my parents...don't get me wrong its a great way to save some money but...how far can one person take advantage of there living situation. My point relating to the following...<br /><br />Days in advance "Number 6" and I planned to go out to dinner(yesterday night). So today he asked if I'd like pizza...I agreed and said sure(although it wouldn't have been my pick for a first/second date unless it happened to be at Uno's which...I hate Uno's, no offense). In this case...it wasn't Uno's...or even Pizza Hut, Domino's, Papa Johns, etc. It was frozen pizza from the store...which his mom cooked at home for everyone. I was stunned really...I mean, the first incident with him wanting to go to the cheap downtown movie theatre and now being even cheaper and your mom making us all dinner. Common now! Doesn't he find that a bit embarrassing and childish even...can't we just get some time to ourselves. Can't I just get this dude outta his frickin parents house for once! For the love of God!!<br /><br />He plans on moving out in June...but not far from his parents. I believe he does need to move out but...I hope he plans to grow up, stop being so darn cheap and starts living life a bit more. Sorry if I sound like a b*tch but...I can't live like that and I don't know if things can work between us if this is an on-going affair. Its sweet how he's obsessed with me but...I don't think I'm feeling him although I'm trying to give him the benefit of a doubt here. At least he apologized for not being clear about our dinner plans but sh*t...he should have stepped it up and just taken me out because I really just wanted to bounce up outta that place. I didn't get all cute for hours to just hang in his room and eat frozen pizza off a paper plate.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-77975211418973110352008-03-30T02:48:00.000-07:002008-03-30T02:55:43.668-07:00Fool Me Twice<a href="http://blogs.kansascity.com/photos/uncategorized/talladega_nights.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://blogs.kansascity.com/photos/uncategorized/talladega_nights.jpg" border="0" /></a> Well “guy number 6” turned out to be just a big jerk as the guys before. As you may know, we were supposed to be going to the NASCAR event together. Since this guy had practically begged me to go, I even called out of work because he begged me so badly to go with him.<br /><div><br />Well yesterday morning he texts me saying “not to sound like a jerk but you’re going to have to pay me for the ticket”. I was like “okay…how much is the ticket?” him claiming the ticket is $100. It’s not like I don’t have the money to go but…I’d rather not spend it on something like watching cars go around a track which…I could do at home really. </div><br /><div><br />Then he went so far to tell me that he wasn’t sure if he could afford for me to go if I didn’t pay him for the ticket. It’s like…you could afford $200 when you bought 2 tickets in the first place but suddenly you have to check to see if you can afford it when you’ve already purchased the tickets prior to ever even having me in your life? Doesn’t make much sense to me, I mean, it was either he brings me or he pays for a ticket to an event he will go to by himself and waste $100 since he couldn’t find anyone else willing to go out of there way for him. </div><br /><div><br />It’s like, the other night he tried to tell me how we should do dinner and a movie and get a room together. When we ended up just watching a DVD he had already purchased and hanging at his place so…how much do you think that would’ve cost if we had done what he wanted to in the first place? Let me do some research on the cost of those 3 things combined…</div><br /><div><br />Normal Dine-in Dinner: Est. $40 for 2 w/tip<br />Average Matinee Movie Tickets (w/out food): $10/x2 Adults<br />Cheapest Hotel Online: $65.00/1 Night (16.5 miles from his place)<br />Total=$125.00</div><br /><div><br />Looks like his cheap-self could’ve afforded it to me. Even if we had just had dinner and the hotel or a movie and the hotel, it would’ve been over $100 or a little under. Unless, he wants to take me to McDonalds and go for the Dollar Menu on our first date? Ha-ha. He didn’t even want to go to a normal movie theatre…he wanted to go to one of the ones in a little downtown area so…it probably would’ve been a cheaper ticket for some older movie. What the heck was I thinking? This is why we should always listen to our instincts. No wonder he thinks I’m out of his league (because I apparently am)…I guess because I expect to be treated like a queen, which he knew anyway, heh. He’s a manager that lives with his parents, how could he not afford $100? I think a typical kindergartner has $100 without any having a job!</div><br /><div><br />So, back to the story at hand. He claims to have texted me tons of times to my cell phone…which I didn’t receive a single text from him since earlier in the day when he had requested ticket money about 12 hours after I had initially just left his house telling him I could go with him to the race. So I waited till 9pm to finally text him and ask him why he never got back to me on him being able to afford for me to go. He claims in those tons of messages to me that he was trying to tell me how he could afford for me to go with him after all. So I got pretty happy about that and then I proceed to ask him if he still wanted me to go with him. He then says how he ended up getting his Dad to go since he didn’t hear from me. It's like; your hearing from me now, why can’t you just tell your Dad you had wanted to take me?! So whatever, I waited a little bit and texted with “well, I was waiting for your call to tell you that I could afford to go with you after all”, just to be queen-bee about it. He hasn’t said anything to me since, and I had to tell my work to disregard my “family emergency”, shame on me, and him.</div><br /><div><br />Word to the wise…if a guy preaches he is some “southern gentlemen”, it’s just the same as a guy trying to tell you he’s a “nice guy”. In reality, if he’s a nice guy, he doesn’t go around saying that he is. Also means…he’s probably a southern hick or prick is more the word.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-82770097995160825982008-03-29T01:07:00.001-07:002008-03-29T02:38:47.037-07:00Better Judgement<a href="http://myangeltreasures.com/library/JS068.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://myangeltreasures.com/library/JS068.jpg" border="0" /></a> As women I believe we should try to give some men the "benefit of the doubt" as you read from my previous post and also be keen to what your instincts are telling you about someone.<br /><br /><br />Today I was meeting up with a new guy, which makes him date number 6 this year(although I have yet to blog about guy number 5). We have been friends on MySpace.com for some time now although we've only chatted on and off...up until now of course. He writes me and tells me how he has gotten out of a relationship he had been in and how he is looking to meet someone new in his life. Although he acts as if I'm out of his league he is very sweet to me and I try to assure him that I'm just me...no set type really and I try to assure him that we're more alike then he ever could imagine.<br /><br />So today we were suppose to go on a date and he was so excited about it around 8am and he's all texting my cell phone and everything. Little to my knowledge he had a doctors appointment that didn't go at all well later that day. To make a long story short, he starts being indecisive about our date and over reacting and just...being plain odd. So we basically come to a conclusion that today is just...not going to be at all a good day for us to meet up. So we cancel the date, he feels horrible but I know its for the best although I was a little pissed he had waited so long to inform me which he did appologize for.<br /><br />So I eat dinner and about an hour later he's calling my cell. He changes his mind saying how he does want to go out now. Which...has thrown me for a loop to say the least because I was basically ready to stay in and call it a night after basically being stood-up in such an odd way. So I cave in and tell him that okay, we'll meet up. 20 minutes later he's calling me asking where I am...I hadn't even finished getting ready yet. So feeling aggravted from earlier and then him being too pushy I just tell him that...I don't think today will be a good day for us to hangout. So I basically stand him up(a first for me but...he did it first!).<br /><br />Then I turn into him and text him and write him online about how I'm sorry for cancelling on him like that and so forth. So we gradually work our way into a conversation again trying to assist the issues at hand and I just had to find out what happened at his doctors appointment that he wouldn't tell me about earlier but he had to discuss it with his parents so urgently.<br /><br />Come to find out not only was his blood pressure high but he could possibly have cancer which was unexpected news to him. I mean, I was in shock really and felt horrible for him and I'm praying to God he doesn't have cancer because this guy is just someone after my own heart. Cancer is a very sensitive subject for me. Having lost one of my most dearest family members to it has been one of the hardest things for my family and I. So yea, I mean...I felt horrible for the guy and just wanted to show him my love and support and reassure him that I will always be someone that's there for him regardless if we ever have a meaningful relationship or not.<br /><br />I will be the first to tell you that I was crying and praying for this guy today. So, we ended up spending time at his place tonight and watching a DVD after all the standing up we had done to each other today we couldn't stand it anymore. Not only was it nice just being with someone that looked at me with such admiration and an open heart to finding new love in his life but he appreciated me even more-so because I had showed how much I cared for him since he has basically been a stranger to me up until recently and meeting him for the first time today. He also had tickets to the Nascar event this week and I've called out of work "family emergency" on my way over to his place to be able to go with him(he seemed happy and surprised I did so because I had mentioned earlier I had to be at work that day and couldn't go) since he had no one else able to go with him and was worried about having an extra ticket with no one to use it. Life is too precious and too short to worry about things like work because to me family, friends and God always comes first.<br /><br />Well, for anyone else reading this blog out there, your thoughts and prayers for him will be greatly appreciated. He'll find out next week if he does have cancer or not, I'll do my best to keep everyone posted.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-64063655538591280262008-03-29T01:07:00.000-07:002008-03-29T01:40:18.498-07:00Benefit of a Doubt<a href="http://www.delight.com/images/photos/MOCA%20Jerk%20Mug_376.gif"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://www.delight.com/images/photos/MOCA%20Jerk%20Mug_376.gif" border="0" /></a>For those of you that read my last blog post I ended up going out with a few of these "Losers" just to try to give them the benefit of a doubt.<br /><br />Guy number "Two" although I have told him I have been dating someone new he'll still randomly send text messages to my cell. The one this week just read "Sup" so 5 hours later I decided to simply reply "NM" (Not Much) and I haven't heard anymore from him since which is perfectly fine with me.<br /><br />So guy number "Three" has became a friend and he realized this week that he really does need to remove his personal ad he placed on the dating website we met from because what it comes down to apparently is...he has been heart broken a bit beyond repair. I think we both know he does really seem to like me, he's just a bit in denial I think. He has told me that if he was to be with someone right now, it would be me.<br /><br />Guy number "Four" apparently didn't know how to get in my pants fast enough(which didn't happen). So he started turning into a jerk perhaps thinking that reverse-psychology or bringing another person down would make him seem out of my league or make him feel better about himself. He'd say such rude things to me as...<br /><br />"you look older than me" (when everyone says I look 18 and he looks his age)<br />"you have wrinkles" (even babies have wrinkles, ha-ha)<br />"don't get any bigger" (when he hits on women a lot bigger than myself)<br /><br />Anyway, I believe he was just trying to make a quick buck out of me by wanting to use my design skills to his advantage. This man is perhaps insane which is why...he is I claim "single for good reason". As for my comeback to all his immature remarks "at least I don't have white hair yet", he shut his mouth after knowing that I noticed his gray, ha-ha. Its funny comparing these remarks to the ones he said in my previous post.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-52113423084847747352008-02-20T01:03:00.000-08:002008-02-20T01:51:28.481-08:00Everythings Anew<a href="http://msnbcmedia3.msn.com/j/msnbc/Components/Photos/070309/070309_ratThinker_vlg_11a.widec.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://msnbcmedia3.msn.com/j/msnbc/Components/Photos/070309/070309_ratThinker_vlg_11a.widec.jpg" border="0" /></a>As 2008 has approached and year of the "rat" is also upon us I have decided to tell you the "tail" (rat...tail, get it? heh) of my recent dating excursions since January 2008.<br /><br />The first three men this year have all been from the same personals website. The first was a young man that took me on a date to a Japanese Steak House (he knew of my love for sushi). He seemed okay but I couldn't get three words in at any point throughout our date. Nor am I as into snow sports as he apparently was and I could probably care less about how he ended up with two of his sisters cats (I'm allergic to cats!). Maybe I should've told him how I had two pet rats...plus it's now even year of the rat in Chinese culture. So, I later left the guy a message on the dating site saying that "I'm sorry, we just...aren't a match" basically.<br /><br />Guy number "Two" was very cute and fun (30-ish) but...not at all as intelligent as he tried to make you believe he was. Everything was going great, we even shared some kissing between us at the end of the date. He had planned to meet up again the following week but ended up standing me up instead and making an excuse that he had eatten bad fish and was tired...and bluntly stated so in his text message to me which was sent to me at last minute after I had just texted him. Besides...he didn't know what he was looking for, be it a relationship or a fling and I know what I want so, it just wasn't meant to be for us.<br /><br />Number "Three" was a man close in age and we had so much in common. Unfortunately the things we didn't have in common were strong enough to out-weigh the good things we had in common. Although I wasn't crazy about him at first, he seemed crazy about me...but later the tables seemed to have turned. Unforunately he seemed more into being a "home body" and doing what he wanted than caring about what I wanted. So when he didn't believe in celebrating Valentine's Day "anymore" and I did care...it was the last straw and I had to let him go. If he thinks V-Day should be every day and not just one day out of 365 days a year...where were all my chocolates and flowers before? (ha-ha).<br /><br />Last but not least this year is guy number "Four" and he's old enough to be my Dad. So far he almost talks down to me as if I'm unexperienced in life when he's a complete moron for doing so or perhaps even thinking that way?. He seems to believe their is some strong "energy" going between us but honestly...I don't feel or see any "energy" or chemistry or anything between us. He's such an idiot because he doesn't even remember having briefly said "hello" to me several months back and is claiming now to have just taken notice of me. Needless to say he took notice of me while he was on a blind date with someone else at the bar I always frequent. Saying how when he saw me he didn't even want to be on his blind date and how he would've rather been chatting and spending time with me. So far he keeps texting my cell phone with these messages...<br /><br /><em>"Lets not hold anything back lets go for it"</em><br /><em>"Give it time...and lets be each others focus"</em><br /><em>"I see a possible future with you"</em><br /><em>"I'm going to make you happy...I'm going to show you that I am the one"</em><br /><em>"You seem genuine...I sense a strong desire to connect and settle down"</em><br /><em>"I haven't seen a woman like you in a long, long time"</em><br /><em>"you're a good girl that's what I need, that's what I've been holding out for"</em><br /><em>"you may fall madly in love...just warning you"</em><br /><br />Is this guy for real?! (Heh). Do those pickup lines even really work?! Maybe if they felt more "genuine" to me.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-91352611601924709992008-02-20T00:39:00.000-08:002008-02-20T01:05:46.656-08:00The "Other" Woman<a href="http://i.ivillage.co.uk/uk_en/a_ukpix/100x100/couple_moody_6_100.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://i.ivillage.co.uk/uk_en/a_ukpix/100x100/couple_moody_6_100.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>To catch everyone up to speed on things with the "DJ"... it never did go as planned. Turned out he had a "Girl Friend" living with him and is a flirt. Well, he's an old pervert anyway that just wanted to get lucky with me, and I wasn't having any of that.<br /><br />So this past December I turned the big "24" years old which....only left me with 1 year to reach my "25 year plan" goal of finding my "Mr. Right" and getting wed. Obviously...I don't see that happening thus far but I still haven't given up hope that my "Mr. Right" and not the "Mr. Right Now" is out there.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-79112928562430515902007-10-20T12:43:00.000-07:002007-10-20T13:07:14.781-07:00Older Man Mishap?So the DJ I had talked about in the last blog entry had asked me to come out to see him DJ this past Thursday night...so I did of course. The week had gone by though where neither of us had each others phone number and he didn't even know my name.<br /><br />I danced with many different men/women of all ages and races that night and I had a total blast but of course I couldn't stop checking out the DJ and smiling at him and really only wanting to be dancing with him that night. Although the DJ had asked me to come out that night...I couldn't help but feel that perhaps he wished I hadn't. Toward the end of night I waited for him as usual because I wanted to spend some time with him just as we did last week. He claimed he couldn't hangout that long because he had to DJ for a wedding the next day...same excuse as last week of course. So as we walked out the door he got stopped by some people outside to chat for a second but I just kept walking to my car because well...I was feeling a little pushed to the side.<br /><br />By the time I had gotten inside my car who do I see running up to my car... the DJ. So I smile and let him in my car. He finally gets my phone number and asks me my name as well. So I figure he'll call or text me soon as he proclaimed to do. He kissed me goodnight and then walked over to his car.<br /><br />So the next night I go out to the bar knowing that he has to DJ for a wedding and won't even be at the bar(assuming of course). Turns out...he came into the bar as a local and not as the DJ...but did he take the time to call me or ask me out to spend time with me...no, he didn't. Of course I was feeling hurt and I had left the bar early that night, but I didn't even know he was their when I left until a friend told me they had seen him their. He was on the opposite side of the bar and didn't bother asking anyone about me apparently.<br /><br />I really wanted to spend some time with him but I think because of our age difference...he's blowing me off a little because he's perhaps uncertain. Sure I'm an attractive girl and had hot looking guys pulling me in close to dance but...I only wanted the DJ. I'm not sure what he's thinking...perhaps he doesn't really want me after all. I figure next week...I won't be so nice, especially if he doesn't call me before next Thursday arrives...or I just won't show up at all next week and see how he feels about that. Lets just say if I do go...I'm going to pretend to not notice him and dance and be with any guy I feel like instead of waiting for the DJ to make up his mind or tell me how he really feels.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-22978974703616155502007-10-14T14:39:00.000-07:002007-10-14T21:16:48.032-07:00Dating Older MenI've stuck a fancy for a man twice my age for the past year now. Whom until recently we ended up making-out in his car and what not <em>(Reminding you that he's older than my mother and he has a 21yr old daughter that has a child, making him one of the most adorably-cute Grandfather's ever). </em>We had never even made a real pass at one another before and I had always thought he was attractive although unsure if he had felt the same for myself.<br /><br />Until two weeks ago when he announced outside around my moms friends and my mother that he wanted to give me a huge hug goodbye and gave me a nice kiss on my cheek goodbye. Sure their was no perversion or anything of that nature, just a kind hearted kiss goodnight as my friends and mother walked out of a bar we frequent. My mother saying out loud "Ohhh, he likes younger women!" (ha-ha).<br /><br />I was totally thinking about that kiss he had added into the hug he so badly wanted to give me that night. My mind began to wonder of the possibilities of being with him and if their was more meaning to that kiss than just a kiss goodnight...also thinking that since this man works at this bar as a DJ, he has seen me with several other men closer to my age and what could be going on in his mind about me...if anything at all.<br /><br />My mom has yet to discover is age and she claims that lately he has been showing interest in me, although we both noticed before he can be a little flirt although neither one of us could confess to having ever saw him kiss another woman on the cheek at that bar.<br /><br />So the next week I decided to head back out to the bar and do things solo to see if perhaps...their was more than meets the eye. It wasn't too crowded that night and as he was DJ-ing, I stood 10ft from him near the dance floor as he looked over and smiled at me and I gave a smile and friendly wave to him. He approached me and making small talk about asking who I came with or something of that nature and I told him that "I came to see you, you don't see me with anyone else now do you?", he smiled and laughed a little as if to believe I was joking but replied "really?? No you didn't...?". I confirmed that I did and he hugged me yet again although he was a bit bashful about it but he also seemed happy...perhaps that a much younger woman he had seen for a year now had made a pass at him. He then urged me to kiss him if I really meant to come out to see him and him-alone tonight...I was a bit shy about it because he was still working and all...so I giggled and didn't kiss him but I told him I would later on. He was just like "see, I knew you didn't just come here to see me" with a smile on his face as he walked back up to the DJ booth looking over at me with a bashful smile in slight disbelief of what I had told him.<br /><br />Sure my mom will totally disapprove if she finds out his real age but....I'm really starting to like him and I know he must fancy me too. So on that note...<br /><br /><em>-Is age really just a number? </em><br /><br /><em>-Will our age difference cause too much conflict between the two of us and eventually end abruptly? </em><br /><br /><em>-Should I follow my heart or my Family?</em><br /><br />These are questions and topics that arise for many other woman out their and the best advice I believe a person can say is....to follow your heart. If you believe your family is going to disapprove just keep the new relationship on the "down-low". It's better to discover your relationship/s out for yourself and learn from experience than having to break-off something that could be a beautiful one. If things positively progress in the relationship, than deal with it than instead of stressing a lot over it now.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-394264702977356272007-09-01T20:07:00.000-07:002007-09-01T20:14:36.452-07:00DEJA VU<a href="http://images.dpchallenge.com/images_portfolio/57202/print_preview/354557.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://images.dpchallenge.com/images_portfolio/57202/print_preview/354557.jpg" border="0" /></a>Should past relationships be allowed to enter into our lives once again? Unfortunately this topic can only be broken down into a million questions depicting that past relationship.<br /><br />Did the past relationship end badly?<br />Was it ever a good relationship for the most part?<br />Is it worth going through again?<br />Will the end result be a positive one?<br /><br />We could create millions of questions to ask about rekindling an old flame but in the end…what is it your heart is telling you? I believe that’s the only answer to this question. I believe if you’re unsure and your heart is urging you to go for it…then just go for it, what do you really have to lose? Life’s too short to worry about what could’ve been. All we can do is live, love and learn from the experience and hope for the best.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-13119811402581005382007-08-05T15:56:00.000-07:002008-11-13T06:54:48.349-08:00WHO'S THAT LOOKING BACK<span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5095354379844901442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja4VCozUsQcwzseORaXwSix5ooDGey2Ag1CIW1c_R4mvl6GuMctEnJ7KFNHwve-q9Z60kUwzaxq2gNQ_W-KzKKDkhmBs5dMs1qSgp1wZiBhazHaonAG_XHIlyvWM1zvtQe1jWs8xrnXyAJ/s400/girlsmall.PNG" border="0" /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">Most of us know people that are actually in love with themselves and think they're the "cats meow". I even saw an episode on Dr. Phil where one guy couldn't stop looking in the mirror and checking himself out. It was causing him huge relationship problems with his wife. I also saw a video clip of Paris Hilton who would walk anywhere on the streets and go straight to the nearest mirror or window that would show her reflection in it. It was a bit sickening how obsessed one person could be and I know Paris isn't the only one guilty of this act. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;"><br />As I began to notice that some of us may perhaps be in love with ourselves a little too much I began to wonder if I in fact would even date myself. Sure that probably sounds a bit silly but seriously, would you take yourself out for a date? I mean sure some of us have days where we pamper ourselves with manicures or a little shopping spree, but if there was another one of you, perhaps in the opposite sex, would you in fact be your own perfect match? When I had first thought about this, I told myself "yeah why wouldn't I date me?" but when I really thought about it and thought of the negative things I see in myself, I wasn't so certain that I would. Sure I think I'm cute, fun, artistic and so forth, but I started wondering if the negative things I saw about myself outweighed the positives.<br /><br />I even had a girlfriend that joined one of those online dating sites, I'm sure many of you know about those. Well my friend told me that after she had filled out hundreds of questions giving her honest answers and was ready to see who she matched with from her answers...she claims the dating website told her she wouldn't match with anyone. First off I find it hard to believe that a dating site is unable to at least give you a few people to date, but I suppose it's very possible that she did get those as her results. I mean some of us meet "the one" and for some they have several soul mates throughout their lives but not everyone finds a soul mate. Perhaps I don't have a soul mate either but, "what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger". </span><br /></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-59587662916376829372007-08-04T13:45:00.000-07:002008-11-13T06:54:48.494-08:00SECOND CHANCES<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5094954763202779698" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2aLyiuWTY-VXJZYsqAzUROt8Wumg9hwL2r79hWUVp1LWVVtED0F5-wKiMk1-zBodk7vhC_RMngfheSg3FOvPrnsK4pZ0T7cHBAnWd9OfZ651UIrdNpp-3S9_G8TgdJnbEmIDrSaUSVCfv/s400/lovesmall.PNG" border="0" />I'm not exactly certain that many of you or any of you out there have ever given someone a "second chance" at something. I am usually caught doing such acts as the "second chance" meaning you've forgiven another person for something for the first time thus giving them another chance. Perhaps I shouldn't be so forgiving since my past relationships have all failed me but deep down I suppose I'm a pretty forgiving person that just wants to get along with everyone.<br /><br />To make a long story short, I apologized to the man I had been dating for the past two months and he apologized as well. We came to the conclusion that in order for us to ever have a healthy relationship we're going to have to communicate better with one another. If you ask me it's hard starting a new relationship because you want things to go smoothly but in some cases a lot of negative things may occur in the beginning and things that go unsaid because you don't want to doom this new relationship. With myself when all these negative things continue on and build up inside my brain, I eventually explode with negative feedback when pushed over the edge and it's not very charming.<br /><br />Speaking of "second chances" I spoke with someone that I've really begun to like over the past few months and he mentioned to me about him being a bit hurt that I had picked another man over him. As it turned out the man I had been with, I believe he tried to play me for a fool of some sort and the man who is still a bit down about the whole thing has continued to talk to me and befriend me.<br /><br />I really hope he can see things from my perspective and forgive me for the things I did because I really care about him, even if he lives a four day drive away. The relationship we have is a bit odd to me because even when we're single or when we're dating we always talk like we really want to be with each other even though I wouldn't go so far as to say that we're cheating since we've never met but, who knows what the future holds in store for both of us.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750936962167856938.post-16168682420128650902007-07-31T19:07:00.000-07:002008-11-13T06:54:48.634-08:00WRITE OUT LOUD<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSRbPc3DBDbif_wZjFqUbNaATcEPWv9xkD_tNth3Y7HwOm-KDLoew-pgXLOyiYSWEU5_MywPpjjwXM-X4OERDfLtFV-UmPI48_z0sFAhg68GaluL2sP6fA9h_F7f70Pbbz5mAdNn7UCZ4o/s1600-h/sharpiesmall.PNG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5093548728349022754" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSRbPc3DBDbif_wZjFqUbNaATcEPWv9xkD_tNth3Y7HwOm-KDLoew-pgXLOyiYSWEU5_MywPpjjwXM-X4OERDfLtFV-UmPI48_z0sFAhg68GaluL2sP6fA9h_F7f70Pbbz5mAdNn7UCZ4o/s400/sharpiesmall.PNG" border="0" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">Two months ago I met yet another guy at a club that I frequent on Friday nights and needless to say the relationship didn't work out accordingly. Our true colors came out earlier this afternoon via text message when I hadn't heard from him in four days and took it upon myself to find out what his story was. It was unfortunate that I couldn't talk to my own Boyfriend about the "Asian Redneck" I was with that had ticked me off while in Orlando last week because my Boyfriend couldn't grasp the fact that I went somewhere with another guy. The guy I had been dating even took it upon himself to call me a "Player" today, but we all know "it takes one to know one". So other than the fact my Boyfriend was upset that I had gone away with another man for three whole days his other reason for being upset with me consisted in a box I had brought over to his home. I had brought an emptied eBay box from my house that I filled with several parakeet items from when I had parakeets so that he could use the items for his parakeets. He had gotten upset that I had taken it upon myself to take a black Sharpie marker and use it over the address that was still left on the box. I would never ask a person why they crossed their address off of something as he proceeded to do and I think it's only common sense as to why anyone would do such an act. I am single once more because I went on vacation with a male friend and I don't want people I barely know to have my address. Dating for me has become so ridiculous that I'm not even sad about this one and I'm starting to wonder if the only guys who are single are basically single for good reason. I think I just knew that this relationship wouldn't progress into anything more than what it was since I was slowly learning things about him that I didn't really like. As for now it looks like I'm off once more for my quest to find my perfect soul mate and try to see if I can accomplish my "25 year plan" as a friend so jokingly put it. </span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1