WHO'S THAT LOOKING BACK

Most of us know people that are actually in love with themselves and think they're the "cats meow". I even saw an episode on Dr. Phil where one guy couldn't stop looking in the mirror and checking himself out. It was causing him huge relationship problems with his wife. I also saw a video clip of Paris Hilton who would walk anywhere on the streets and go straight to the nearest mirror or window that would show her reflection in it. It was a bit sickening how obsessed one person could be and I know Paris isn't the only one guilty of this act.

As I began to notice that some of us may perhaps be in love with ourselves a little too much I began to wonder if I in fact would even date myself. Sure that probably sounds a bit silly but seriously, would you take yourself out for a date? I mean sure some of us have days where we pamper ourselves with manicures or a little shopping spree, but if there was another one of you, perhaps in the opposite sex, would you in fact be your own perfect match? When I had first thought about this, I told myself "yeah why wouldn't I date me?" but when I really thought about it and thought of the negative things I see in myself, I wasn't so certain that I would. Sure I think I'm cute, fun, artistic and so forth, but I started wondering if the negative things I saw about myself outweighed the positives.

I even had a girlfriend that joined one of those online dating sites, I'm sure many of you know about those. Well my friend told me that after she had filled out hundreds of questions giving her honest answers and was ready to see who she matched with from her answers...she claims the dating website told her she wouldn't match with anyone. First off I find it hard to believe that a dating site is unable to at least give you a few people to date, but I suppose it's very possible that she did get those as her results. I mean some of us meet "the one" and for some they have several soul mates throughout their lives but not everyone finds a soul mate. Perhaps I don't have a soul mate either but, "what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger".

WRITE OUT LOUD

Two months ago I met yet another guy at a club that I frequent on Friday nights and needless to say the relationship didn't work out accordingly. Our true colors came out earlier this afternoon via text message when I hadn't heard from him in four days and took it upon myself to find out what his story was. It was unfortunate that I couldn't talk to my own Boyfriend about the "Asian Redneck" I was with that had ticked me off while in Orlando last week because my Boyfriend couldn't grasp the fact that I went somewhere with another guy. The guy I had been dating even took it upon himself to call me a "Player" today, but we all know "it takes one to know one". So other than the fact my Boyfriend was upset that I had gone away with another man for three whole days his other reason for being upset with me consisted in a box I had brought over to his home. I had brought an emptied eBay box from my house that I filled with several parakeet items from when I had parakeets so that he could use the items for his parakeets. He had gotten upset that I had taken it upon myself to take a black Sharpie marker and use it over the address that was still left on the box. I would never ask a person why they crossed their address off of something as he proceeded to do and I think it's only common sense as to why anyone would do such an act. I am single once more because I went on vacation with a male friend and I don't want people I barely know to have my address. Dating for me has become so ridiculous that I'm not even sad about this one and I'm starting to wonder if the only guys who are single are basically single for good reason. I think I just knew that this relationship wouldn't progress into anything more than what it was since I was slowly learning things about him that I didn't really like. As for now it looks like I'm off once more for my quest to find my perfect soul mate and try to see if I can accomplish my "25 year plan" as a friend so jokingly put it.